Meh. Now. Finally

Annyeong..kekekekeke

I am so sorry it's been a while i didn't write blog. it's been a year uhh? i have been busy with thesis last year. You have no idea how hard it has been for me. Well, i just wanna say I GRADUATEDDDDDD ON SEPT 22ND 2012 LAST YEAR!!! I cried and laughed so much.

UHH I should have posted my resolution list last year on this blog. I fulfilled 90% my resolution last year. Yahoooo. Congratulation!! Thanks to Allah SWT who really helped me alot. Since last year i started studying hangeul so i can speak another language but.... i can't even create sentence in hangeul. well at least i can write and read hangeul. Proud of myself.

I was getting busy to look for a job now. I am an unemployee. Of course i have a dream what i want to be in the future. But i don't want to share it before i find out the way to reach them. kekekeke TALK LESS DO MORE is important. AHA

I still living here by the way in Bandung. I spent time from October 5th-November 16 2012 in Bontang actually but i decided to stay here till i know what i want to do. Hopefully i won't get them (dad and mom) disappointed. It's really hard to me to make them proud with the best GPA in major. i think it will be too much if i can't get the best job later. Huffht i feel burdened.i still trying to not whine to mom and dad or my sisters. I feel so lonely these days.

You know what i seldom watch tv lately. I don't know why but i think i don't match with what they are offering anymore. Almost forgot. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013!!!!!!! KEKEKEKEKEKE i spent that night by myself. it sounded pathetic, weren't it? 

Hmm about make a relationship.

I still thinking it's not really big deal for now. I won't force myself to randomly in love with someone who doesn't even think of me. I will let myself find my true love when i am ready. But honestly i dated someone before kekekeke My best friend deliberately let us date without really know about each other. And it was disaster. I hope i can meet someone who really interested in me in the future. It will be great to be loved first. People might be misunderstood about my high standar but honestly i just trying to be honest about what i like or not.

Well i just want to share them.  I hope my dream comes true. Amen.

With love,

Aniken

Love or Admire You?

My dear,  you know what I saw interesting program a few days ago. On that program, someone asked to the host “what difference between love and admire feeling?” and the host started explained it. If you love someone you must be trying to make him as yours but not for admire feeling. huh. If you have strong feeling to guy who you really like and you want him to be yours it must be love. Waah, it was confusing for me. What feeling I had for you? I’m wondering at myself what I want. My brain told me it just was admiring or such a same feeling like that but my heart couldn’t approve it. I keep thinkin and askin what my heart wants. Tutututututututtttt. I through 4 months or more to think you a lot. I stop clicking  another links when I surfed on the internet to stare at your post and look for things to know what you did that day. Secretly I saved your pict on my phone so I can see you everyday. I missed you everynight. I never have drunk before and one day randomly I asked to people around me what the taste of alcohol. Kkkkkk. I only wanted to know anything about your passion and what you like. Huh. That’s too much. I knew.  What did I do? What are you doing? I miss you here now. while I’m writing this blog, I keep asking to myself about what you are doing now. I miss having a conversation with youuuuuuuuu.. ohhh dear! Why so aggressive, Put? Hihihihihihihihih. Am i?

I still can’t open my heart. You have my heart’s key, Dear! KKKKKKKKK. I’m laughing out loud. I can’t believe what I did say. Hey, I miss you so much. Don’t make me wait for so long! Day by day, month by month, I thought I liked youuu more than you know. Sssssssssssshhh, Take care yourself! Don’t drink too much..l o v e

Much Love,

APH

Saying The Truth. Am i wrong?

Honestly, I decided to stop flirting around last year and trying to focus on my college’s stuff. I thought it would be pathetic  if I just waited for someone and he never come. Tired of waiting. Till 5 months ago, I met you undeliberately. I forgot how we started giving words and attentions to each other everyday. I almost known everything about you. Your hobby and your habit. Yes, your really like drinking. But it doesn’t make me down. My best friend asked me to stop taking it seriously. Meeting you on virtual world gonna make me in pain sooner or later. I ignored it. For my first time, I figured out what I need. You were seen perfect for me.(what a stupid gal! U're really in love Xoxoxo)

What happened?

No words. No reason. 

You let me down. My brain told me ‘You’re Okay’ but it didn’t work out to my heart! I can’t stop asking to you. Did I pull you so tight? I never known. I keep notice you secretly (till now honestly lol). I spent a lot of my times to stare at your picts and your post and you never known. It seemed like I’m yr secret admirer! Haha I admire you, Dae Kyum Kim…Just hoping I can find someone like you someday!


what to do next Aniken Putri Hasibuan? Mm, just letting this feeling go. I hava lot of things to do this year! Time is going to make me feel better! Stay Focus on my way! Yuhhhuuu (My heart's crying lmaaaaaaaoooooo)

Ahh, I miss you a lot, My dear! You still the best for me now!

P.S : I’m gonna remember those words till the end “Your first date is his timeline” Staring at your posts and your picts is date  for me.. I’m not sure yet. Haha. I’m fine by the way! I don't FN care about what you will think about my post tonight.C ya!!

pathetic

Note for Myself

Note for Myself :

Come on! Pls dont take everything around you really serious because it's gonna be though to you later. Trying to be realistic about everything. Your life isnt as good as Naughty kiss's series or Heart String's series. Just ignore unnecessary things, Put! OOhh, you should thank to time about your past. Life must go on!  The Best Things are waiting for your way in the future. You could get the best result as long as you put alot of efforts on it. Chin UP!! About your college, stay calm but do it seriously. You spent alot of time to think. This semester is gonna be FUN. Be confident about your abilities, Aniken Putri Hasibuan! Aha~~ Almost forgot, you used to say Hi first to that guy without get the response back for real, and come on pls dont say anywords to people! they're gonna leave you soon, sooner or later! 

Thanks for reading my notes!

With Love,

APH

Have you ever felt this feeling?

I know this feeling is so random. Im trying to be like as usual but you know that im an ordinary gurl whom sometimes I can be emotional. I keep reminding to myself that I shouldn’t take it seriously but once again I lose my strength. I feel so sad because of my own fault. I was wondering what happened to …. Cause … was avoiding me and never answered my question. I just known that … talked about me and was trying to be careful so that … cant do wrong things . ..... trying to be nice to me so I can always feel comfortable when I talk to ….

I just trying to express my feelings..

why don’t you try to tell me whats going on?

I see. Poof

Still on My vacation

Its been awhile. Im on vacation now. Finally, my sister, Melly was accepted in Chatolic University of Parahyangan, Admistration of Public major. And yeah, it made me to reschedule my plan. If I wanna back to home together, I have to wait her to finish her business here. That’s what my dad told me.

Because of it, I made a plan to spend my time here. I don’t want to spend my time for doing nothing, like chill all day- eating-sleeping-talking on chat allday-listening to the beast- those activities can make me bored as well. That’s why I called Duiiii to ask her about part-time job so we can do something useful to us. And yeah, we, me, duiiii, kalti gonna work in one of newspaper company soon. I hope we can ace it well guys. I hope so. :p its been awhile I didn’t write some news or anything. I hope I will not mess up all of things later.

Ahh, I will finish my course immediately. I heard it will be finished on August. I started my course since 6 month ago and I had some new friends there. And sometimes I feel so stupid. They are really smart for real. Even some of them are younger than me. Glad to know all of you guys!! Hahaha. If you read this, you should say something to me guys! :p

Ohh, this week will be the last week I can be an announcer in Radio Community of Unisba. Wow, that’s so sad. I have learned about many things in that place. They taught me how to talk with my listener and they taught me how to be a operator too. That’s cool,guys. i just wanna say thank for all of you guys in that community who gave me a lot about how to be a good announcer. It means a lot. It can be my precious experiences and hopefully I can do the better job someday.

Honestly, I was trying to be smexy lately. Hihihihi. I was using  nail polish. Pink color. And I was thinking about cut my front hair. I miss my front hair so much.  Melly is one of people around me who was annoying about that. She always complain about my appearance. If I get confused while I was choosing my clothes before going to the course, Melly will say, “Put, just because your teacher is handsome, you became so flirtatious” Ohh My gosh.. I just wanna good looking and simple. Grrrrrr. -___-

Getting tired now. Will continue this later. Bye bye~~ Keep dreaming… <3

Im on Vacation

Long time no see everybody. Hopefully all of you guys doing good now! I didn’t write something for along time. Hows yr day? Let see. What the last blog about? Ahh, I talked about him. Hahaha. Mr.President. Hmm, I decided to stop making friend with him. I wish it will be the best choice ever. I cant control myself around him.

Raining here. And Getting headache. It was my fault. I hit the bed so late everynight. Im doing nothing, spending my time to chill, and as always, busy with my phone. It made me forget about anything. WOOHOOO. The good news? Im on my vacation right now. I cant go home early. I have to finish my course first. And Melly, my sister, hasn’t got uni yet. So we should stay here for awhile.

Almost forgot. Im liking everythings about Korean now. Music, Their movie, Variety show, include this guy, Lee Gikwang. I wish all of you guys  never gotten bored coz of my stories. My closest friends said that im K-pop-ers (the girl who liking Korean pretty much) LOL. Mm, it making me crazy. I was interested all about them. I knew all of boyband/girl band and their songs indeed. I dream everyday. I dreamt that one day he (lee gikwang) will love me. Keep hoping it will happen to me.  CRAAZZEEEEHHH

And finally I was stuck with my dream. Is it good? I don’t think so. And did you know what my feelings right now? Everday I miss someone who doesn’t know that im exist. That pathetic part. Abstract? Yah.. if you wanna yr dream come true, you should put yr effort there. What do you think? Im waiting the miracle. Hahahha. Might it come to me? I doubt it. Why so easy to people to get the miracles? Sometimes I feel like that. Even I should be realize who I am. Ahh, stupid ass.. I wrote the stupid thing on my bio of twitter: 

Bio : A professional dreamer  

it wasn’t good. In fact, Im not strong enough to be a dreamer forever. I need something which is can make my life better. im stupid dreamer. Am i? huh :(

My weeks were not easy. I have hidden my madness, sickness, and sadness but I have to keep smiling in front of people. Im a good liar. It will be good for people around me to know im happy. That sucks. Sometimes. Hahaha. Ahh, you should know it. Me and friends of mine had a coldwar with my classmates! It was going to be though. But we will see what will happen to us. Anyone wanna know about my college? Me and friends of mine were busy to look for the place where we can work there. Dwi, my closed friend, she’s really though. Me and Kalti still enjoying our holiday. Wanna breath the air as many as we can before do our next task. Alhamdulillah, I have an award from my major. I got the high “IP” in my major. Thank You, Allah. Glad to know my efforts till now can get my mood up..

7.31pm here. Gonna watch my Korean series at 8.00pm on kbsworld channel. Ahh im going to be crazy. gonna post Gikwang's photo and my award later. Will be back on pico too!  Hahaha see yah..

Ohhh, I still waiting him. I know sooner or later. You can come to me.. Have a good day everyone!