Love or Admire You?

My dear,  you know what I saw interesting program a few days ago. On that program, someone asked to the host “what difference between love and admire feeling?” and the host started explained it. If you love someone you must be trying to make him as yours but not for admire feeling. huh. If you have strong feeling to guy who you really like and you want him to be yours it must be love. Waah, it was confusing for me. What feeling I had for you? I’m wondering at myself what I want. My brain told me it just was admiring or such a same feeling like that but my heart couldn’t approve it. I keep thinkin and askin what my heart wants. Tutututututututtttt. I through 4 months or more to think you a lot. I stop clicking  another links when I surfed on the internet to stare at your post and look for things to know what you did that day. Secretly I saved your pict on my phone so I can see you everyday. I missed you everynight. I never have drunk before and one day randomly I asked to people around me what the taste of alcohol. Kkkkkk. I only wanted to know anything about your passion and what you like. Huh. That’s too much. I knew.  What did I do? What are you doing? I miss you here now. while I’m writing this blog, I keep asking to myself about what you are doing now. I miss having a conversation with youuuuuuuuu.. ohhh dear! Why so aggressive, Put? Hihihihihihihihih. Am i?

I still can’t open my heart. You have my heart’s key, Dear! KKKKKKKKK. I’m laughing out loud. I can’t believe what I did say. Hey, I miss you so much. Don’t make me wait for so long! Day by day, month by month, I thought I liked youuu more than you know. Sssssssssssshhh, Take care yourself! Don’t drink too much..l o v e

Much Love,

APH

Saying The Truth. Am i wrong?

Honestly, I decided to stop flirting around last year and trying to focus on my college’s stuff. I thought it would be pathetic  if I just waited for someone and he never come. Tired of waiting. Till 5 months ago, I met you undeliberately. I forgot how we started giving words and attentions to each other everyday. I almost known everything about you. Your hobby and your habit. Yes, your really like drinking. But it doesn’t make me down. My best friend asked me to stop taking it seriously. Meeting you on virtual world gonna make me in pain sooner or later. I ignored it. For my first time, I figured out what I need. You were seen perfect for me.(what a stupid gal! U're really in love Xoxoxo)

What happened?

No words. No reason. 

You let me down. My brain told me ‘You’re Okay’ but it didn’t work out to my heart! I can’t stop asking to you. Did I pull you so tight? I never known. I keep notice you secretly (till now honestly lol). I spent a lot of my times to stare at your picts and your post and you never known. It seemed like I’m yr secret admirer! Haha I admire you, Dae Kyum Kim…Just hoping I can find someone like you someday!


what to do next Aniken Putri Hasibuan? Mm, just letting this feeling go. I hava lot of things to do this year! Time is going to make me feel better! Stay Focus on my way! Yuhhhuuu (My heart's crying lmaaaaaaaoooooo)

Ahh, I miss you a lot, My dear! You still the best for me now!

P.S : I’m gonna remember those words till the end “Your first date is his timeline” Staring at your posts and your picts is date  for me.. I’m not sure yet. Haha. I’m fine by the way! I don't FN care about what you will think about my post tonight.C ya!!